Hi, I'm glad we could meet.
But tonight its a little more than food. Because I'm back on my "what is the destiny of my life" kick. Perhaps its just too much time on my hands, or perhaps its just boredom. Or, perhaps its a change stirring deep within me, struggling to prevail against the here and now. Or maybe thats the fabulous pasta I had for dinner.
Whatever it is, these last two weeks here I've been dreaming about running a bakery. Baking for a bakery, managing a bakery, delivering for a bakery, that stuff.
Have you ever yearned against your "right now" situation? I think thats what I'm doing. The hard part is figuring if this is a grass-is-greener situation, where I only want a bakery because thats not what I'm doing, or if its a deep-and-abiding-passionate-need situation where I must obey or lose myself.
See, I know me. I know that I have an often fickle heart (part of the reason Handsome had to chase me for so long before I allowed myself to be caught), and I'm easily distracted by things that seem to be an upgrade from my current situation. Luckily, I'm married to the best man I know, so there's no chance of an upgrade there. But in everything else, I often crave change. I update my software on my computer every chance I get. I rearrange furniture, even if its only trading two end tables, just to trade them back a week later.
So tonight I want a bakery. Don't get me wrong, I still want the farm and the fruit stand, but tonight I think I'd also like a bakery. And if I had a bakery, I would sell the following cakes:
|Wacky Cake (its egg-less)|
|Butter Yellow Cake|
|White Champagne Cake|
|Devil's Food Cake|
I don't want to make anything fancy or fondant-ed. And there probably will not be many icing flowers, although I would try. And I'd like a few pound cakes too: Lemon, Cream Cheese Chocolate Chip, Sour Cream, and Brown Sugar. And all the cakes would be available as cupcakes too. And I'd have cream cheese, chocolate, vanilla, and perhaps other types of icings and glazes. I want to learn to make a cooked icing, rather than just a creamed-butter-type.
So, what do you think? What if someone wants to totally veer off from their current life path, into uncertainty. I realize that now would be a good time, with only having a less-than-bright dog as a dependent. But I don't want to leave 7+ years of college work to be for naught. So I was thinking of finishing my degree, in the chance that it is a grass-is-greener situation, and also practicing my baking skills at home, and perhaps taking some baking classes from the local community college in the summer.
But how do I know if people would want to buy my baked goods? How do I know if I'm business material? How do I start? Any direction on this front would be much appreciated. Are there any dreams that you're unsure about? May as well post them on here under an anonymous heading. That way you actually get to say it, but you don't have to commit before you're ready. Thats what I would do.
Yearning to be,